Samantha Emily Evans, the Editor-in-Chief, starts off her column by talking about change.
Hi, I’m the Editor of The Tribe Online.com, and thus, I have a column. Every week I will write something, an insight, experience, or story. Really, whatever I am thinking about.
I am Jewish, and this week is Rosh Hashana, the Jewish New Years. Perfectly aligning with the start of the semester, I have been thinking a lot about change. As a fourth year, I have been reflecting on my past years, and trying to figure out, who do I want to be? How do I want to change myself this year?
Every year while bored in the summer, I dream of my ideal morning routine in St. Andrews. I plan out my Sammy lifestyle, and what I wish my everyday was like. Every morning I will wake up at 7am and walk along the beach. I will meditate and do yoga on the beach, come home, and shower. I will eat a healthy breakfast, and then I will go to the library and read. Imagine how happy I would be if I did that every morning!
Except, every year I become overwhelmed, or too tired, or stay up too late, and I fail. But every year, I fail a little less. I am slowly changing. The concept of change is a beautiful thing.
I remember throughout middle school and high school, my peers would always write in my yearbook, ‘You’re great, never change.’ This frustrated me immensely. Why did they not want me to change? If I did change, would they not think I was great anymore? Had I reached my ultimate human phase? Should I just deem myself perfect, and stop trying to improve myself?
As I don’t believe in perfection, I wanted to continue improving myself, to change. Thus, I started a tradition of signing my own yearbook and writing,
Please change. Keep exploring.
It was only recently I realized, it was not because I didn’t like myself that I wanted to change, but because change is a natural and important part of life.
Henry David Thoreau says, ‘Things do not change; we change’. He is right; we change our clothes, our hair, our diet, our minds! Just changing one’s outfit can change one’s entire outlook. It can feel like a brand new day. Imagine if you changed your outfit six times a day? It would be like having six days in one! A year would be a dog year!
Another thing we change, which as a Fourth year I keep forgetting, is who we talk to. When I went to the Union during Freshers’, I felt so uncomfortable surrounded by all new faces that I only talked to my friends. When I did feel comfortable enough to talk to a new person, once I revealed I was in Fourth year, they would leave as quickly as possible. Despite this rejection, I really want to continue to try talking to younger students, or just to new people. I always forget that the reason we are out is to talk to new people. If we just wanted to talk to our friends, we would have stayed home.
This year I am trying to change again. I have yet to go to yoga, or a walk on the beach, but I did meditate before bed last night. I admit, I was in my pajamas, and the lights were off, and it was only for a few minutes- but it is the beginning of the process.
Winston Churchill says, ‘To improve is to change, to be perfect is to change often.’ Even though I don’t believe in perfection, I will strive for Churchill’s definition of perfect. Who knows, by the end of the year, I may have changed into 50 Cent.
** I Ain’t Buy No Pickle is in reference to the song ‘Bazooka Bubble Gum’. Please comment below if you understand the joke.
Samantha Emily Evans
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Originally published on The Tribe.