darling you need to say no
how the world whirls in your head
round and round like a crown,
buzzing with should be could be would be
don’t want to let them down, let them down
but in the act
letting myself down.
Oh I should have said no yesterday-
should have said see you Tuesday,
but now I’m just tired! And stressed.
As the world takes it’s rolling way
and he says, “I’m starting to fall for you,”
And I say, “me too.”
All I know is I think I want to text him all the time,
but I hold myself back. And feel the need
to share how anxious I am,
I am so very anxious.
I have officially only slept alone in my bed twice this month…
and tonight is the only night I can sleep alone –
but I have such an itch to see him.
A need- I think it’s because I’m afraid if I don’t see him,
it won’t be real. It will go away, he will take it back.
But must trust his words, his thoughts.
Trust it is real – will last.
Love and Psyche, Jacques-Louis David, 1817